So, I ended up hearing from my guy on Friday morning. He said he couldn't wait to see me that night, so I didn't get stood up after all. Sigh of relief! We went out and had a great time. And then, before we were about to part ways, he told me he loved me! We've only gone out four times, but it feels like we've been seeing each other for longer than a month since each time we hang out it's for like 8 hours at a time. I was so happy/freaked out/nervous at his declaration that I couldn't think of anything to do but kiss him. I couldn't say it back. I'm impulsive about everything else in my life but saying those three little, very serious, words. I don't know how he felt about me not saying it back. We did decide to be exclusive though, so that's one thing I can check off my New Year's Resolution list. Boyfriend-check!
This comes with a price though, I think. How do I tell him I have mental problems? I can't even begin to describe the anxiety I feel about this. I guess it helps a little to know that he loves me. If he already loves me, he has to love all of me, right? At least, that would be my hope. And it's not like he knows everything about my personality now and he already loves me, right? Plus, how long do I continue to date him before I tell him? My therapist said it's not necessary to tell a person everything at once-they should get to know you first, and I think she's right, but he's already said he loves me! I don't want to lead him on, and I don't want to get heartbroken if he decides not to care about me anymore. I've already been devastated once-that's more than enough for me. I pray that things will go well. I'm already falling for this guy, which is not something I expected. Please, let things go well.