Can this be? Am I starting to feel a little better? I can hardly believe it, and wonder if it is my involvement in more activities, or the combination of meds that is finally starting to do the trick. I am now volunteering at the hospital, writing stories about new mothers and their babies-a happy process, but so nerve-wracking. Yesterday was my first day, and as I was taking notes, the paper was dripping wet from my sweaty palms (disgusting, I know). But, I made it through, and even had a good feeling in my heart once I was finished.
Today I went to yoga in an attempt to use my un-used gym membership and try and get in some relaxing, meditation excercise. It worked too! My shoulders felt less tense, and although I felt a pounding in my head at the time of the workout, once we were finished, I felt good. My brother would even be happy-at the end, we bowed and said "namaste".
More good things are happening too! Yesterday I sold my ex's bike. The one he saddled me with in "le divorce". I am going to put the money in a fund labled "30th bday fund". I hope to take a trip with that money. Maybe back to MI, or to CA to see one of my good friends. I haven't been out to see her in a while. And this week I continued to feed my Amazon.com addiction-I got two new (actually used) cd's. The "Fantasticks" soundtrack which reminds me of my favorite musical/play and a simpler time, and another Franz Ferdinand cd. Plus, tonight we have company over and I've had to sit still for a really long time listening to stories about people I don't know, so I rushed into the den and ordered another soundtrack from my 2nd favorite musical-"Cabaret"-the one with Alan Cummings, because you just know that every other version doesn't compare! Now, I secretly vow to myself to buy NO MORE things on Amazon and NO MORE lipgloss. I bought another tube yesterday and today-both of which I hate. I have become a gloss snob. Unless I can try on a million tubes in the department store and find the perfect color, it just doesn't work for me.
So, that's all for now. I am so happy that life is going better and pray that nothing breaks this spell.