Thursday, February 25, 2010
Today I saw a new therapist-she specializes in anxiety management. She seemed really nice and very easy to talk to. Easier to talk to than my normal therapist. I was talking to her about my suicidal ideations which I've had as recently as two weeks ago and broke down in tears. It embarasses me that I feel this way, but I can't help it. When things are rough and overwhelming I just feel like I can't take it and things swallow me up. I have to get better at using my DBT skills I know, but when I'm in a crisis, my mind doesn't immediately go to distress tolerance skills, it goes to everything but! Eating, sleeping, or wanting to end it all. I hope this gets better.